Over the years we have struggled with this conviction of being a
full quiver believing family. I know my
big sin has been not realizing the blessings of Gods children for our
family. Not that I didn't love the children we had but that I had been
controlling
our future children. I did notice that I lost my love for other
children over the years and wondered why. I used to be happy and loved
being around kids and babies but like so many women in this world I got
sucked up into the feminist selfish view of children. Being the
oldest of now 12 kids (4 have been adopted and 1 more in the process
since I left home) I had to
deal with random people and family members coming up to me and saying
you aren't going to be like your mom are you and have a ton of kids? I
wanted to say yes because deep down inside I know it's not that bad but
over the years having lots of kids started having a negative light
about it.When my husband and I got married April 4th 1998 I was so full of young hope and love. I just knew we were going to have the perfect family and I was going to be the best mom. We got pregnant just a few months later and everything changed! I had severe morning, noon and night sickness and our life began crumbling around us in every area. Our daughter Kallista born 3-10-99 was injured at birth and has Brachial Plexus palsy that affects her right arm.

During the time between Kallista and Korban I began to change my opinion on the full quiver belief and I waited until what I thought was a good space of 2.5 years until we had Korban 7-20-01
I fought God for four years and finally
read Mary Prides book on the subject. I could not argue with a single
point she made and knew we needed to have another baby. Thus God
blessed us with our precious Kadence Anne on Sept 4 2005.

I knew I was going to struggle with this again after she
was born more so than with the first 3 because with them I had good spacing between them . And I was right I fought it as hard as ever but God would not
let me rest about it. So again I read "A full Quiver" and my eyes were
really opened. I confessed my years of sin and repented wholeheartedly.
I was worried that God would try and make up for lost time and send a
baby our way ASAP but once again God showed himself to my doubting
heart and proved that He is the one in control and gave me a little space.
Khloe Elisabeth was born March 22 2007
And now Khloe is 11 months old and even though I cringed and prayed many many times that I could have maybe 2 years between babies I am a pretty sure we are expecting again. I will know more tomorrow.
Being a quiverful family is a daily struggle and is not an easy path but it is a worthy conviction and I pray that God will bless us all!

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